Some thoughts/ a rush of blood to the head.

Some Thoughts:

the CA's are over... and you know this is getting into a really bad habit.

Because i don't work in school, i rush mug in the holidays, leading to a paradoxical increase in working hours in the hols.

Now - i can't enjoy my hols and... school, whatever way you put it, will still be SCHOOL. ive killed guilt free enjoyment! - or at least the delusion of it. all hail the unfreshmaker (from the antiproducers of Mentoes)

What i am thankful for however, is my erstwhile mugging companions. Without you, i could not have done it. Literally. all the borrowed notes and discussions into the pathogenesis of whatever metastatic cancer or for that matter DOTA! i COULD NOT have done it without YOU!

special thanks goes to:

Alex, You are THE man. you lend clinical focus to me, a poor non-clinical shmuck! and as my spiritual advisor, i have never been found lacking. Thanks for all the late night hanging out and just being there when i needed someone to share my burdens and joy(haha) in the happy knowledge that i would always get the best of advice and empathy. Also thanks for all the times we makaned prata to the music of my growling stomach and fatty (changing) liver. I think i owe you 1x a lunch and 1x an owning in DOTA. Hows the beer shirt man. hahaha.

Oh before i become an ungrateful ingrate, thanks again for all the RIDES! Yes, Alex, your car is *wicked sick!* make that two lunches.

Sunder, who has both lent me his notes and his SMILE by being the pillar of strength hes always been. Also thanks for all the owning in DOTA. I actually learnt quite a lot. ;). I also owe you lunch (our hot date which we will have down at Little India.) Also i hope you like the beer shirt.. even though you don't drink. hehe.

Natw for lending me yes, surprise surprise, NOTES! and for being in the oddly glorified position as my hotel receptionist. without you, how would i ever know when to wake up? Also, thanks for all the late night msn and music and stickers!
I also owe you lunch (wed on?) - and, in addition to that, might i add a good movie to boot? Jeux d'enfants - Love me if you dare! Lastly, you are also entited to a scarf which i brought back from the avian flu (H5N1) infested Vietnam. *grin* *cough cough bronchopneumia*

Claris, for the nodding doll which cheered me up to no end (even though i hid that by pretending not be be totally captivated. haha the secrets out!) and for being the bubbly mugging companion you've always been. Also, i like peach sweets very much! *smacks lips hungrily* You are entitled to my everlasting devotion and also a scarf. You may buy me lunch. mwuahahaha.

Pearlly, HOT CHIC! thanks for the mugging company and the ever ready smile for me, myself and the camera! ouyang the camera whore strikes again! You really do look good in photographs! (as is in real life.) ho ho ho. You are also entitled to my everlasting devotion and the aforementioned scarf. ditto above.

Siying, HOT CH- @#&^*!!!!! *gets beaten up by he who shall not be name for messing with his girl* thanks dear for the NOTES, and for being the cheerful smile at the odd hours we stayed up to! Now if we can replicate that fit of pure joy (jumping up and down outside the library) on a daily basis, life would be perfect! You ALREADY have my everlasting devotion.. or at least for the rest of our CG days ah hah...*grin*. and yes, you get the aforementioned scarf too!

Blanche, M'dear nieeeeece! thanks for all the encouragement and late night MSN! woohoo! *gRINz!* (note the stylistics) and the book the book the book the book the NOON book! squeals! *mwuaks!* ive been looking for it for the last half a DECADE! and now its mine! my precioussssss.. mwuahahah. I owe you lunch. and we can also go watch the bloody/grisly/macabre SAW II with xue ting if you're still game! *happy happy/evil grin*

Nat Lam, *mhm* cheeese cake is good. and also tom yam instant noodles - did you know MSG's actually good for you? haha lowers your risk of cancer, heart and kidney failure! its the miracle drug of the century! and say hi to Chanel for me! *pats the lovely dog's head!* I really enjoyed our conversation - with Chanel evesdropping all the way! Its nice to have someone whos willing and articulate enough to just open up and talk for hours! must be the glib law school training! I Hope the scarf compliments your wardrobe and (for reasons that shall not be revealed here) HAIR!

Larry, for all the help with patho, and for giving me a wicked excuse to annoy you about Joanna.

Joanna, for all the help with patho, and for giving me a wicked excuse to annoy you about Larry.

Jiawei, DUDE! haha you so totally rock. i dunno but mugging with you is actually fun. no specifics.. just YOU man!

Jingxiang/wee soon/cheng yu/melvin: oh man you guys a hilarious when you DOTA! so sorry im such a noob. *bleah* but nvm own the ouyang a few more times (with my expressed permission). its good for you! im walking stress relief! special thanks to Jingxiang for his last min notes! they were a lifesaver. haha. they came out. *grin*

to the thankful souls who put together compendiums of notes upon useful notes, God bless you, i guess.

Overall, while i bitch and grumble about CA's, its really whats drawn us all together.
so much for that band of medical brotherhood we've heard so much about... its just a mix of hardwork, mugging and yes, the ever dreaded CA's. Im thankful.

Rush of blood to the head:

now, in the emotional dept. CAs really mess you up. i think its the stress. what does finding someone mean? it happens so incidental to periods of great stress im starting to think its an epidemological problem... *twiddles thumbs*

perhaps its the yearning to find some security admist the insecurity of the exams or even the unpredictability of life stemming from rush mugging where night and day are blurred into a dizzying whirlpool of half read facts.

the de rigour these days seems to be just standing at the threshold; where everyone's just *friends* -yet, the balls in my court and now im faced with the question of where i want this to lead.. do i walk knowing that a beautiful friendship is worth its weight in gold or do i try for the distinction list? this sounds eerily like the negative marking scheme we've become used too...

i guess its how much i've grown emotionally attached to her. pragmatically, it seems an uphill struggle... yet, my heart flutters at her very presence and its really been bringing out my better side. im more joyful to boot! i sense theres something about this one.

oh well only time will tell.

ho hum. life goes on. and to you jocelyn...aiyoh.. why you so busybody! hahaha.

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oh and WOW> this post is a grand total of 1240 words long. theres so much to be thankful for, rather than bitch!