Holding the Fort

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And finally, back to Uncle Seng holding up the backdrop for all the photos! lol. He *still* looks happy haha.

Aunty Evelyn

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Mr Lam

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My darling uncle - as crazy as usual :)... mhm.. i wonder what hes trying to *grab* knowing him, its probably obscene...

Esther

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Jane

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Thats one of my (extremely chio) cousins that came over for the New Year. Her father insisted on a photoshoot.. even with crappy lighting and backdrop. i guess the results should speak for themselves... (we had to wait for cloud cover. lol)

more up!

Tommy the Beagle!

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Yup thats the new DOG. Hes very photogenic! though we might have to give him away... he seems to have a rather serious bladder problem. *sigh* we're taking a watch and see approach for the next month...

Joshua Harassed

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And another

and another conversation gone wrong- this time named:

ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
i was hit pretty hard today, something someone told me.

ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
which made me realise that the world is like *that*

ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
*that*.. for want of a better word.

我不会唱歌 - wigan wigan wigan says:
i mean tts why ppl invented the word fuck

我不会唱歌 - wigan wigan wigan says:
the first guy

我不会唱歌 - wigan wigan wigan says:
this world is lyk.... lyk..... lyk.... fuck!

我不会唱歌 - wigan wigan wigan says:
n hence the word was born ...

the conversation goes downhill from here...

You'll never guess who...

excerpt from msn:
X has declined to be named...

X:
catholic girls are horny. it's the forbidden fruit

ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
lol the rest too. its singapore man.. sex is forbidden

ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
all males are requested to be castrated (if possible)

X:
take a trip down to the halls of residence

ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
sex is forbidden because they have inferior sperm compared to our superior rulers.

ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
lol i know

X:
don't talk shit about chinese sperm
X:
we populated almost 2 billion worldwide

ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
yeah, but this is singapore...

X:
with our shorter cocks some more

ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
only the PAP sperm is viable.
ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
haha
ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
opposition sperm will "destabilise" singapore
ou yang~ - i realise that alot of DotA talk is bravado.... says:
we wouldn;t want that eh?

X:
publish this shit on your blog for fun lol.

So sorry we forgot the card!

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Joshua. so sorry we forgot the card...

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Weesoons birthday - 365 days a year II

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roflol. the shaven man gets his six dots of monkhood! you HAVE to see this pic large!

p.s Weeson, you ROCK! thanks for being such a sport!

Weesoon's birthday - 365 days a year.

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Plant Macro

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I love the colour contrast between the orange and the deep emerald green.

Feminism, Neocapitalist Desituationism

Feminism, neocapitalist desituationism and dialectic narrative

H. Rudolf Dietrich
Department of Political Science, University of Massachusetts, Amherst

Catherine Sargeant
Department of Semiotics, Stanford University

1. Rushdie and the subcapitalist paradigm of context

“Society is part of the failure of truth,” says Bataille. The premise of dialectic theory holds that sexuality may be used to exploit the underprivileged. It could be said that Sartre promotes the use of Marxist socialism to deconstruct the status quo.

“Reality is fundamentally dead,” says Lacan; however, according to Hanfkopf[1] , it is not so much reality that is fundamentally dead, but rather the collapse of reality. The subject is contextualised into a dialectic narrative that includes narrativity as a totality. But Debord uses the term ‘neocapitalist desituationism’ to denote not discourse, but subdiscourse.

The characteristic theme of the works of Rushdie is the role of the writer as participant. It could be said that Drucker[2] states that we have to choose between dialectic theory and Derridaist reading.

In Midnight’s Children, Rushdie examines cultural subdialectic theory; in The Ground Beneath Her Feet he affirms neocapitalist desituationism. In a sense, Baudrillard uses the term ‘the materialist paradigm of context’ to denote the common ground between class and society.

The subject is interpolated into a Marxist socialism that includes reality as a paradox. But if dialectic theory holds, we have to choose between Debordist situation and preconceptual discourse.

2. Dialectic theory and the capitalist paradigm of expression

“Class is a legal fiction,” says Marx. Lyotard uses the term ‘the capitalist paradigm of expression’ to denote the stasis, and therefore the dialectic, of subtextual society. It could be said that the primary theme of Drucker’s[3] essay on dialectic theory is the role of the poet as participant.

The main theme of the works of Rushdie is not narrative, as dialectic objectivism suggests, but prenarrative. Lyotard uses the term ‘dialectic theory’ to denote a mythopoetical totality. Thus, d’Erlette[4] suggests that we have to choose between Baudrillardist hyperreality and neocapitalist Marxism.

“Sexual identity is part of the rubicon of culture,” says Foucault. The subject is contextualised into a dialectic theory that includes sexuality as a whole. In a sense, the characteristic theme of la Fournier’s[5] analysis of the capitalist paradigm of expression is the dialectic, and some would say the failure, of dialectic society.

If one examines neocapitalist deappropriation, one is faced with a choice: either accept the capitalist paradigm of expression or conclude that art is used in the service of class divisions. The subject is interpolated into a Derridaist reading that includes narrativity as a reality. Thus, if the capitalist paradigm of expression holds, we have to choose between constructivist narrative and precultural capitalist theory.

“Sexual identity is part of the genre of reality,” says Foucault. A number of theories concerning neocapitalist desituationism may be revealed. It could be said that the main theme of the works of Rushdie is the bridge between society and truth.

If one examines the capitalist paradigm of expression, one is faced with a choice: either reject dialectic theory or conclude that consciousness is used to entrench hierarchy. Neocapitalist desituationism states that context comes from communication, given that Derrida’s essay on the capitalist paradigm of expression is invalid. But d’Erlette[6] holds that we have to choose between the neotextual paradigm of narrative and Lacanist obscurity.

The subject is contextualised into a capitalist paradigm of expression that includes language as a whole. Therefore, the characteristic theme of Pickett’s[7] analysis of structuralist objectivism is a self-referential paradox.

The ground/figure distinction which is a central theme of Pynchon’s V emerges again in Gravity’s Rainbow. But the subject is interpolated into a neocapitalist desituationism that includes sexuality as a totality.

The main theme of the works of Pynchon is the difference between sexual identity and class. Thus, Marx suggests the use of Foucaultist power relations to analyse sexual identity.

The subject is contextualised into a neocapitalist desituationism that includes language as a reality. In a sense, in V, Pynchon deconstructs dialectic theory; in Gravity’s Rainbow, although, he denies neocapitalist desituationism.

Marx uses the term ‘the capitalist paradigm of expression’ to denote not, in fact, materialism, but prematerialism. However, if dialectic theory holds, we have to choose between neotextual discourse and the capitalist paradigm of expression.

Dialectic theory implies that class has objective value. In a sense, the subject is interpolated into a subdialectic depatriarchialism that includes reality as a totality.

Sontag’s critique of dialectic theory suggests that the Constitution is intrinsically dead, but only if consciousness is distinct from art; otherwise, Baudrillard’s model of the capitalist paradigm of expression is one of “textual narrative”, and thus a legal fiction. But Marx promotes the use of dialectic theory to challenge sexism.

3. Pynchon and the capitalist paradigm of expression

“Truth is fundamentally impossible,” says Baudrillard; however, according to Drucker[8] , it is not so much truth that is fundamentally impossible, but rather the stasis, and subsequent fatal flaw, of truth. Many sublimations concerning a mythopoetical whole exist. Therefore, Sontag uses the term ‘dialectic theory’ to denote the failure, and hence the stasis, of textual sexual identity.

In the works of Pynchon, a predominant concept is the concept of predialectic sexuality. The subject is contextualised into a capitalist postconceptualist theory that includes reality as a paradox. However, the characteristic theme of Prinn’s[9] analysis of dialectic theory is a predeconstructive reality.

Lacan suggests the use of neocapitalist desituationism to read and deconstruct society. It could be said that Dietrich[10] holds that the works of Pynchon are empowering.

If subpatriarchial deconstruction holds, we have to choose between neocapitalist desituationism and Foucaultist power relations. Therefore, the capitalist paradigm of expression suggests that class, somewhat paradoxically, has intrinsic meaning.

In V, Pynchon reiterates neocapitalist desituationism; in Vineland, however, he denies dialectic theory. In a sense, Dietrich[11] implies that we have to choose between the capitalist paradigm of expression and cultural precapitalist theory.

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1. Hanfkopf, V. O. (1977) The Fatal flaw of Society: Dialectic theory and neocapitalist desituationism. University of Georgia Press

2. Drucker, R. ed. (1982) Neocapitalist desituationism and dialectic theory. Harvard University Press

3. Drucker, V. R. (1998) Narratives of Failure: Neocapitalist desituationism, feminism and Foucaultist power relations. Yale University Press

4. d’Erlette, J. G. U. ed. (1987) Neocapitalist desituationism in the works of Cage. Loompanics

5. la Fournier, K. (1994) Forgetting Lyotard: Dialectic theory and neocapitalist desituationism. Schlangekraft

6. d’Erlette, A. C. R. ed. (1977) Dialectic theory in the works of Pynchon. Cambridge University Press

7. Pickett, F. (1998) The Collapse of Class: Neocapitalist desituationism and dialectic theory. Schlangekraft

8. Drucker, L. Z. ed. (1987) The postcapitalist paradigm of discourse, neocapitalist desituationism and feminism. Oxford University Press

9. Prinn, R. K. L. (1975) Reading Sartre: Dialectic theory and neocapitalist desituationism. Schlangekraft

10. Dietrich, Z. ed. (1991) Feminism, neocapitalist desituationism and the capitalist paradigm of reality. Loompanics

11. Dietrich, F. J. I. (1984) The Futility of Society: Neocapitalist desituationism in the works of Stone. And/Or Press

Well if you didn't understand that...

Neither did I!
its a computer generated piece of rubbish. *seriously*

can't tell the difference eh?

heres the shocker, Alan Sokal, a well known physicist submitted a piece just like that to an academic Journal of Post-modernism. It got accepted and formed that basis of the Sokal Affair. Apparently its acceptance and subsequent publishing raised alot of controversy as the editors of the Journal failed to pick up the difference between real academic writing and total bullshit which he had fabricated (deliberately) with the most ludicious of concepts.

Its rather embarassing to call yourself a professor of postmodernist philosophy when you can't tell bullshit from real writing.

Even more disturbingly,

A TOTALLY computer generated article was accepted to be presented at a conference on computer science. Though, thankfully, it was not peer reviewed or published... well you can see where this goes...

On another note: DIE COFM. DIE HRM. fuffy puff masquarading as Science.

for more info:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sokal_Affair

check out the other hoaxes based on pseudoscientific writing!

and to get your very own personal paper on postmodernism, heres the computer generator! papers are just a refresh away...
http://www.elsewhere.org/pomo

its pretty cool to read how the generated the paper - recursive grammars which form the basis of the sentence syntax.

Yum Yum! Eating with hands is Goode!

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OY:"Hmm what should i order? ...lets see...eh Madurai Set?"

SY:"MARDURA set? MARDURA SET?! OMG.. Nocardia!... urk pus filled legs!"

OY:"eh. shit. really?"

Colin:"NO... maduRAI..not madura..wha lao you guys *shakes head*"

OY:"OH"

SY:"OH!"

SunB:" *roflol*... no comment"

Well, that concludes my hot date with Sunder. Thanks dude for all the help with ordering the gooshy food and for teaching me to eat like a PRO.

Ok, maybe not pro. but, at least ive eaten with my hands at least once in my life!

and oei, how come siying can eat the rice with her hands like a fish in water... you tell me!

btw, that mango drink thing rocks... (bottom right of the photo) whats it called again?

The Hyperactive Ms Tan!

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Quote: I only fall in love with the best!... *POOEY!* siying! pooey! hahaha. still i hope you settle it soon.

Colin not so enjoying the Bite.

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(with Sunder egging him on) colin, you're hilarious!

Colin & Sunder Enjoy a Bite.

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Happy Birthday!

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Happy Birthday man! Thats for being the man of great humour and a great SPORT!

Such a pity i couldn't make it to the party! it looked so fun with everyone attending..

well works - work.
bleah.

Hows the *responsibility* like? :)

Life!

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Life is as such. *sigh* still... theres nothing much to discuss is there?

im such a fool.

on the brighter side of things, what that does not kill us, makes us stronger - i feel like fighting Mohammad Ali right now! :)

The MEE brothers.

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Heya, this post goes out to Sunder whos been feeling under the weather...

BROTHERS! *quip* We stick together and cook to a delicious mouthful in minutes!

Whenever you're down, we'll be there to catch you. Thats a promise!

The World Hurts.

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Take a moment to shut yourself out! i wonder why thats never ever been considered theraputic. it works wonders for some people (i think) :)

and to the afflicted person who shall not be named in the photo, heya! Lifes not that bad mhm? im sure he has his reasons. and yes, you're definitely still attractive to the (non-gay) male population of Singapore. Cheer up!

Architectural Detail at Wheelock Place

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Its the distinctive glass dome that leads to the entrance of Borders.

Since i was there, my heart went *Bling Bling* and then the cashier went *Ka ching!* I bought 3 books: Oh the JOY.

Bill Bryson: A Short History Of Nearly Everything - and nicely illustrated too!
Benriks: This book will change your life now, his sequel, This book will change your life AGAIN! - also very nicely illustrated with pop art graphics.

mhm very visually satisfying trip. :)

Thanks M'dear Niece!

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haha finger puppets! fun!

to date: thanks for the finger puppet, little model BMW and the pirated barbie doll. good heavens! im becoming a toy shop.

and of course the ever present inspirational notes (pictured in the background) that you leave at the table when im sleeping...

Sumiko Tan

im sitting in a comfy chair and eating my sunday lunch. Im relaxed whilst i tuck in a nice bit of homemade laksa... the newspapers are spread before me and i've just read the sunday comic section.

This idyllic picture is vaporised when i read about homeschooling. Don't get me wrong, im fine with the idea of homeschooling or schooling or what you have it about schooling to begin with - however i do have a thing about shameless self exhibition and inane thoughts on the national newspaper. please some standards?

now i haven't read the papers in a while what with exams, holidays and the trip to vietnam for the last month or so... but it appears constants never change (almost.) so yes, shes stopped writing about her pet dog (his birth death and food), her imaginary boyfriend (his presence, her dumping, her learning to live without) or just plain whining about how life sucks (which seems particularly popular).

big deal.

its morphed into her vaguely more introspective but equally annoying apologies over her secondary school education (oh "a drab small convent school" *faux tears*)and her inbuilt bias against the lesser schools in Singapore.

i have one word for sumiko tan: Stop.
for the love of god, STOP.

we have better things to cover.

Dover Mrt by night.

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Larry is the Man.

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Ecclesiastes 7:18

Today in Koinoia, we did Ecclesiastes 3, A time for everything. I don't know why i was suddenly struck by the urge to read the exact verse and the book of Ecclesiastes to more detail..( i haven't touched my bible in awhile!)... but im glad i did.

15 All things have I seen in the days of my vanity: there is a just man that perisheth in his righteousness, and there is a wicked man that prolongeth his life in his wickedness.
16 Be not righteous over much, neither make thyself over wise: why shouldest thou destroy thyself?
17 Be not over much wicked, neither be thou foolish: why shouldest thou die before thy time?
18 It is good that thou shouldest take hold of this; yea, also from this withdraw not thine hand: for he that feareth God shall come forth of them all.

i cross referenced this to the today's english bible:

15: my life has been useless, but in it I have seen everything. Some good people may die while others live on, even though they are evil.
16: So don't be too good or too wise - why kill yourself?
17: but don't be too wicked or too foolish either - why die before you have to?
18: Avoid both extremes. If you have reverence for God, you will be sucessful anyway.

Remarkable!
I was just wondering about whether it was possible to reconcile the concept of a universal morality in context of all the different cultures around the world. And i was provided with an answer.

I concluded that without God, there could be no universal standard, because ultimately, morality can, and will never be a personal concept. It exists in the space between you and me. since neither of us are perfect, morality will not achieve perfection by this means.

If we add God to the equation, only then do we have a firm base to build a house upon rather than a deck of ill- fitting cards. To have a perfect moral standard, NECESSITATES the existance of a perfect being.

My next thought was, how then does one approach God in that sense? What does religion mean? Does a belief in God correlate with the acceptance and practice of His moral standard? or, conversely, and more interestingly for me, can two opposing alternatives occur?

1) That reverence in God and his glory but not its religious structure, lead to an equally productive life?

2)That understanding in religious dogma and structure without belief in God, lead to an equally productive life.

Since ive already explored the 2nd possibility at depth, the 1st possiblity looks particularly interesting.

Perhaps what im proposing is belief in Deism. I've looked at the various religions, and most are pretty similar. How does one tie God to a particular religion?

Since we're on this thread, i shall not let my thoughts be miscommunicated and muddled via pure sematics.

Here is a quote from Deism.com:

If Deism teaches a belief in God, then what is the difference between Deism and the other religions like Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Buddhism, etc.? Deism is, as stated above, based on nature and reason, not "revelation." All the other religions make claim to special divine revelation or they have requisite "holy" books. Deism has neither. In Deism there is no need for a preacher, priest or rabbi. All one needs in Deism is their own common sense and the creation to contemplate.

I argue that all such books have also been inspired by the divine being. there is (possibly) no false book... all have been written for the reverence of God.

i think what nat (lam) pointed out made a lot of sense. what that was not true would not have lasted anyway. so i would guess that all modern religions could possibly be equally true.

hey. don't shoot me over this post yah?

Whats in a name?

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a rose by any other name would smell as sweet.
origami flowers of my own design. whee!

I watched Narnia today!

Overall, it was a pretty good movie.
The christian theme was certainly brought out clearly and powerfully by the director.. while i can't comment on the moral principles articulated, i did however walk away with a very clear idea of what not to do as an evil white witch...

first, some quotes:

1) "bwahahahahaha Mr Faun.. you shall die in the knowledge that this boy betrayed you for candies!"

2) "bwahahaha Aslan, you shall die in the knowledge that your death shall be worth nothing as my armies will crush yours tomorrow"

3) "(this one is more of a mental thought) bwahahah, this stupid boy with a new sword is taking on me as a experienced swordsmaster! wow... DUH!....(some time later)... oh such a pity!.. he couldn't block that parry! hoho... kena knocked helpless on the floor... i wonder what i should do?... hmm... pose dramatically or kill him? i guess i'll pose dramatically!....(more stylised fighting some time later).. WHAT THE!!! *sounds of being eaten by a lion*"

i guess the last one says it all. :)

also... one of the themes of the movie was - heros are not not born, they are made by circumstance. heros are simply the people who rose to the challenge.

make a hero out of me.

Night at Orchard II

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Oh you have to see the large size for these two!

click on the photograph and select "see other sizes" on the right hand bottom.

click "large"

Night at Orchard

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Oh hoho.. i've got a good card - sunder

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Whoa thats a tough one!

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Cranium!

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Cookin!

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Have i mentioned to you lately that i LOVE cooking? haha

Cooked:
1)creamy smoked salmon and ala pasta penne
2)chicken and cream of mushroom ala pasta linguine.
3)Salsa dip.

Pity i didn't get to photograph the food...
I hope you guys enjoyed it as much i enjoyed making it!

i particularly liked how the salmon pasta turned out especially since its the first time ive tried out seafood pasta.

thanks Nat for the chance to cook, and for the photo! :)
oh and before i forget: thanks Jiawei for the kitchen! haha.

And Mums, MUM.

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Oh you know what? i totally love my grandma. shes got to be the coolest grandma in town. shes 70 plus and raps plus does punk parodies.. and and and! wears conical party hat bras.

haha more up later.
i swear its all the american telly shes been watching. ;)

Mummy dear II

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and this is the boring institutionalised one. she wanted a more professional and stern but benevolent look.

Mummy dearest!

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Heh, after years of procrastination, mom, has FINALLY had her portrait taken. and, knowing mummy dear, she only did it when work chased her for it. lol. tsk. still, i think she likes it!

this is my personal version, the official portrait is so much more dull and regular. (ie. blank face and stare!)

An exquisite canvas

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When the human face becomes the most exquisite canvas.

its expressions range from the most subtly acute emotion to long standing joy or melancholy. by forcing it into a monotoned, highly stylised high contrast image, it leads us to rather unsual results.

Some thoughts/ a rush of blood to the head.

Some Thoughts:

the CA's are over... and you know this is getting into a really bad habit.

Because i don't work in school, i rush mug in the holidays, leading to a paradoxical increase in working hours in the hols.

Now - i can't enjoy my hols and... school, whatever way you put it, will still be SCHOOL. ive killed guilt free enjoyment! - or at least the delusion of it. all hail the unfreshmaker (from the antiproducers of Mentoes)

What i am thankful for however, is my erstwhile mugging companions. Without you, i could not have done it. Literally. all the borrowed notes and discussions into the pathogenesis of whatever metastatic cancer or for that matter DOTA! i COULD NOT have done it without YOU!

special thanks goes to:

Alex, You are THE man. you lend clinical focus to me, a poor non-clinical shmuck! and as my spiritual advisor, i have never been found lacking. Thanks for all the late night hanging out and just being there when i needed someone to share my burdens and joy(haha) in the happy knowledge that i would always get the best of advice and empathy. Also thanks for all the times we makaned prata to the music of my growling stomach and fatty (changing) liver. I think i owe you 1x a lunch and 1x an owning in DOTA. Hows the beer shirt man. hahaha.

Oh before i become an ungrateful ingrate, thanks again for all the RIDES! Yes, Alex, your car is *wicked sick!* make that two lunches.

Sunder, who has both lent me his notes and his SMILE by being the pillar of strength hes always been. Also thanks for all the owning in DOTA. I actually learnt quite a lot. ;). I also owe you lunch (our hot date which we will have down at Little India.) Also i hope you like the beer shirt.. even though you don't drink. hehe.

Natw for lending me yes, surprise surprise, NOTES! and for being in the oddly glorified position as my hotel receptionist. without you, how would i ever know when to wake up? Also, thanks for all the late night msn and music and stickers!
I also owe you lunch (wed on?) - and, in addition to that, might i add a good movie to boot? Jeux d'enfants - Love me if you dare! Lastly, you are also entited to a scarf which i brought back from the avian flu (H5N1) infested Vietnam. *grin* *cough cough bronchopneumia*

Claris, for the nodding doll which cheered me up to no end (even though i hid that by pretending not be be totally captivated. haha the secrets out!) and for being the bubbly mugging companion you've always been. Also, i like peach sweets very much! *smacks lips hungrily* You are entitled to my everlasting devotion and also a scarf. You may buy me lunch. mwuahahaha.

Pearlly, HOT CHIC! thanks for the mugging company and the ever ready smile for me, myself and the camera! ouyang the camera whore strikes again! You really do look good in photographs! (as is in real life.) ho ho ho. You are also entitled to my everlasting devotion and the aforementioned scarf. ditto above.

Siying, HOT CH- @#&^*!!!!! *gets beaten up by he who shall not be name for messing with his girl* thanks dear for the NOTES, and for being the cheerful smile at the odd hours we stayed up to! Now if we can replicate that fit of pure joy (jumping up and down outside the library) on a daily basis, life would be perfect! You ALREADY have my everlasting devotion.. or at least for the rest of our CG days ah hah...*grin*. and yes, you get the aforementioned scarf too!

Blanche, M'dear nieeeeece! thanks for all the encouragement and late night MSN! woohoo! *gRINz!* (note the stylistics) and the book the book the book the book the NOON book! squeals! *mwuaks!* ive been looking for it for the last half a DECADE! and now its mine! my precioussssss.. mwuahahah. I owe you lunch. and we can also go watch the bloody/grisly/macabre SAW II with xue ting if you're still game! *happy happy/evil grin*

Nat Lam, *mhm* cheeese cake is good. and also tom yam instant noodles - did you know MSG's actually good for you? haha lowers your risk of cancer, heart and kidney failure! its the miracle drug of the century! and say hi to Chanel for me! *pats the lovely dog's head!* I really enjoyed our conversation - with Chanel evesdropping all the way! Its nice to have someone whos willing and articulate enough to just open up and talk for hours! must be the glib law school training! I Hope the scarf compliments your wardrobe and (for reasons that shall not be revealed here) HAIR!

Larry, for all the help with patho, and for giving me a wicked excuse to annoy you about Joanna.

Joanna, for all the help with patho, and for giving me a wicked excuse to annoy you about Larry.

Jiawei, DUDE! haha you so totally rock. i dunno but mugging with you is actually fun. no specifics.. just YOU man!

Jingxiang/wee soon/cheng yu/melvin: oh man you guys a hilarious when you DOTA! so sorry im such a noob. *bleah* but nvm own the ouyang a few more times (with my expressed permission). its good for you! im walking stress relief! special thanks to Jingxiang for his last min notes! they were a lifesaver. haha. they came out. *grin*

to the thankful souls who put together compendiums of notes upon useful notes, God bless you, i guess.

Overall, while i bitch and grumble about CA's, its really whats drawn us all together.
so much for that band of medical brotherhood we've heard so much about... its just a mix of hardwork, mugging and yes, the ever dreaded CA's. Im thankful.

Rush of blood to the head:

now, in the emotional dept. CAs really mess you up. i think its the stress. what does finding someone mean? it happens so incidental to periods of great stress im starting to think its an epidemological problem... *twiddles thumbs*

perhaps its the yearning to find some security admist the insecurity of the exams or even the unpredictability of life stemming from rush mugging where night and day are blurred into a dizzying whirlpool of half read facts.

the de rigour these days seems to be just standing at the threshold; where everyone's just *friends* -yet, the balls in my court and now im faced with the question of where i want this to lead.. do i walk knowing that a beautiful friendship is worth its weight in gold or do i try for the distinction list? this sounds eerily like the negative marking scheme we've become used too...

i guess its how much i've grown emotionally attached to her. pragmatically, it seems an uphill struggle... yet, my heart flutters at her very presence and its really been bringing out my better side. im more joyful to boot! i sense theres something about this one.

oh well only time will tell.

ho hum. life goes on. and to you jocelyn...aiyoh.. why you so busybody! hahaha.

p.s. leave the comments on the comments tag! tagboard is crowded! :)

oh and WOW> this post is a grand total of 1240 words long. theres so much to be thankful for, rather than bitch!

Shagged

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oh man. you've got to tell me CA's aren't good for the eyebags. *sigh* what to do? 2 hrs of sleep in 36 hours....

i look like shit and about 50.

City Hall area

DSC_0035, originally uploaded by youheng1.

Vivid plus 1 setting, iso 800 (i cropped it.)

T Minus 2

mugginginthelounge, originally uploaded by youheng1.

Yups its one day to the CA... and we are SOOOO hard at work. :)

Look at the time!

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tsk! dinner at 10.30pm! mugging and unhealthy living. :)

out of the D200. hahaha...iso 1600. the grain is actually pleasing to the eye! kudos Nikon!

Take heart!

heart22, originally uploaded by youheng1.

Gosh.. theres so much patho to go! let this be a motivational beacon! take heart guys!

Patience, my name means patience

caozi, originally uploaded by youheng1.

My name means patience, i wonder where this will lead me.

Done with the brush nib for the tablet. ive also gone back to the more organic style of writing - cao zi.

i dislike the character "love". its too modern and jarring compared to the rest of the characters... but i can't find another way to write it.

im really getting to grips about what the tablet can do for me. expect more good (better) work!

Who? REALLY!?! Orrh..Chey!

jiashen, originally uploaded by youheng1.

More silly posts!

Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add one true thing about you, and then tag five more people.

I miss somebody right now. - *dreamy look* ahhh.

I don't watch much TV these days. Hur hur hur.. whats a TV?

I love olives.

I own lots of books. and i like to carry them under the armpits like a geek. kidding

I wear glasses or contact lenses.

I love to play video games.

I've tried marijuana.

I've watched porn movies. *wait* you mean watched not starred in one?

I have been in a threesome.

I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.

I believe honesty is usually the best policy. - may not be able to afford the insurance coverage

I curse sometimes. um. Fark.

I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. - now i just don't care

I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

I'm TOTALLY smart. - i wish

I've broken someone's bones.

I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.

I hate the rain. - nope actually i like it most of the time. but not always...

I'm paranoid at times. *are you watching me?!?*

I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. - never

I need money right now.

I love sushi.

I talk really, really fast. - yeahtoomanytimespeoplehavesaidthisaboutme...... times

I have fresh breath in the morning. - no idea

I have long hair.

I have lost money in Las Vegas. - never even been there

I have at least one sibling.

I was born in a country outside of the U.S - yeah Singapore.

I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.

I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. - some calls not worth the time

I like the way that I look.

I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months - unfortunately true

I know how to cornrow. - what the heck is that?? o.y.. yeah?

I am usually pessimistic. - enough to be a realist.

I have a lot of mood swings. - but occasionally from time to time, yes

I think prostitution should be legalized. You think moral standards are degrading? Howabout invading a country based on halluciation? and getting killed in the process.

I think Britney Spears is pretty. ARE YOU NUTS?

Slept with a Suitemate.

I have a hidden talent. Hahaha.. take your pick: porn star, junkie or bathroom pavaroti?

I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.

I have a lot of friends.

I have pecked someone of the same sex. - almost. bwahahaha.. you KNOW what im referring to.

I enjoy talking on the phone - depends on whom I'm talking to

I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.

I love to shop.

Enjoy window shopping. - like masturbation without the payoff.

I would rather shop than eat. - refer to above again

I would classify myself as ghetto.

I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders. worn a sweater maybe, but what's bourgie?

I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. Nope

I don't hate anyone.I dislike them. - but the people i hate are very very few indeed

I'm a pretty good dancer

I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.

I have a cell phone.

I believe in (a) God. hes a probability.

I watch MTV on a daily basis.

I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.

I've rejected someone before.

I currently like someone. - haha some(one?) lets try many for good measure!

I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. - too many things!

I want to have children in the future. - i like kids

I have changed a diaper before. - the duties of the male child

I've called the cops on a friend before. - and hope I never have to

I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.

I'm not allergic to anything. - Humbum! Study lah.

I have a lot to learn. - the worlds larger than a textbook

I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. - no i'm not a cradle snatcher. Literally

I am shy around the opposite sex. - used to be, now hopefully better :P

I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.

I have tried alcohol or drugs before - you wouldn't believe it.

I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. - have had thoughts in that direction. don't want to put them into practice though. heh

I own the "South Park" movie.

I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.

When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbour or chum. - hmmm

I enjoy some country music.

I would die for my best friends. - who else can you die for? People die from their enemies everyday. haha

I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.

I watch soap operas whenever I can.

I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. too true. (now if only i can get this line to align JUST so.)

I have used my sexuality to advance my career. - hahahahahahah *laughing so hard im going to go into laughter shock*

I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. *my hidden aspirations*

I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".

Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.

I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. - it annoys me

I have dated a close friend's ex. - nope.

I like surveys/memes. - closet exhibitionist

I am happy at this moment. - i mean. whats there to be sad about? um. oh yeah global warming, the fact that im dateless, CA's, stockmarket downers... um... but yeah. still happy still happy! :)

I'm obsessed with guys. - o.o - OY.. yeah. UM.

Democrat.Conservative Republican. - neither, and I don't really care

I am punk rockish.

I am preppy.

I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
its class i have problems with

I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.

I can work on a car.

I love my job. - hopefully i will, one day

I am comfortable with who I am right now. - farts loudly. ahhh.

I have more than just my ears pierced. -

I walk barefoot wherever I can.

I have jumped off a bridge. - bungee!

I love sea turtles. - why not?

I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.

I believe in prophetic dreams. - nopes.. unless they were graphic and incredibly sexual.. then i wish they WERE prophetic.

Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.

Im proficient on a musical instrument. depends. whats proficient?

I worked at McDonald's restaurant.

I hate office jobs. - hence my chosen profession

I love sci-fi movies. - depends whos directing

I think water rules. - organic chem wouldn't be the same without it.

I went to college out of state.

I am adopted.

I like sausage.

I am a pyro. ive exploded lighters and made some small explosives for fun... fire is COOL!

I love the Red Sox.

I have thrown up from crying too much.

I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. - intentionally?

I love kisses.

I fall for the worst people. *worst by definition of : not the people that are datable yes.

I adore bright colors. - no i like dark colours better

I love Dear Abby. who the hell is abby?

I can't live without black eyeliner. but then i can't live without pink paper either.

I think school is awesome. - where else can you get people to smoke weed with you?

I think pigtails serve a purpose. - not as far as i know

I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. - see my blog. its full of this shit

I usually like covers better than originals.

I don't like multi-textured ice cream.

I think John Cusack is adorable.

I f**king hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays

I watch Food Network way too much.

I love coaching youth sports. - hate sports

I can pick up things with my toes.

I can't whistle.

I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.

I have ridden/owned a horse.

I still have every journal I've ever written in. - nopes.. site went down

I can't stick to a diet.

I talk in my sleep.- moan more like. (see graphic and sexual dreams above!) KIDDING!

I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.

I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. - what? you were saying??

Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.- we are descended from apes after all

I have jazz in my blood. - improvise it.

I would not be friends if they weren't family. - some only

I wear a toe ring.

I have a tattoo. -

I love vaginas. - how to do that? what have plastic models at home?

I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.

I am a caffeine junkie. - IV me please

I know who Santos L. Halper is.

I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.

I love wrestling. watching people get beaten up? sure.

I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.

If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. oh you have no idea. haha

I cosplay or know what cosplaying is. - yeah cosplay.. now will you please pass the handcuffs and ROLEPLAY?

I have been to over 15 conventions.

I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. - but only if it is freely given as a gift

I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.

I'm an artist.

I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.

I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.

I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.

I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.

I only clean my room when neccesary. - neccesary is when the WHO raids my room for being the source of legionella and plague right?

weight is my enemy! - has been for too long

I'm a serious chocoholic. only good chocolates pls

One thing true about me: i'm better at deceiving myself than most others around me.

I use too much fat when cooking.

Now the chosen pass it ons:

Nat (Woong)
Jinesh (same again man)
Claris... hahahaha
SIYING! BLOGGGGG!

Ouch!

Im not normally this much of a snob. but... ouch!

daddyluv and babyluv? *coughs*

mommyferg.blogspot.com

Boredom Tank

boredomtank, originally uploaded by youheng1.

Lol. Not quite Sunder my good bro.... not quite - hehe. BOREDOM TANK! not steam tanks of boredom. roflol.

sorry just couldn't resist it.

Psychedelic Prints

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Hmm quite fun! Groovy colours and simple lines. (actually i was just too lazy to draw) heh.

Food at Dung Bo Market

Picture 044, originally uploaded by youheng1.

Yes, She'll definitely kill me...

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Boredom knows no depths.. *grin*

and to whoever it was that day...
"Shes a good CATCH!"
bwahahaha roflol!

*such sabo kings we are... nods*

Haunting is complete.

haunted, originally uploaded by youheng1.

Engaging in Carnal Pleasures.

camerawhore, originally uploaded by youheng1.

It seems claris shares at least some of my warped joy when it comes to the camera. *rock on fellow camera whore!*

The Dark Side

IMG_1140z, originally uploaded by youheng1.

Yes, ladies, i've finally come out of the closet and into the dark side. *grin*

NO. im just KIDDING. done on a dare, whilst drunk and high. (very important background!)

even then, theres a card between our lips... so there!

Enjoy! (to the sadistic people who suggested this.. you know who you are. *growls*)

Janise and Co III

IMG_1195, originally uploaded by youheng1.